Someone's thereSIDE NOTE:even if you're different and alone, someone is there. you just have to find them and let them know that someones there for them too, and that someone, is you.if i sat aloneand got sadder and sadderno one would stop and ask'whats the matter?'I'm always picked lastfor sports and gamesi sit alone at lunchi hang my head in shamei ask myself:'what's wrong with me?'i didn't get itbut now i seei'm different, strangehave different interestsi like to be myselfnot what they wantand since im notthey only tauntthey hate my stylethey hate my hairthey hate my interestsbut i no longer care.i sit in c
Whyas i sit here alone in my room, i think to myself why i was placed on earth. i wondered if there was a god. if this was all a dream, a bad one. why was i placed here, if all my life was meant to be was something that would ruin other peoples lives? if all i was was a nuance, a annoying freak, a outcast, a loner, a victim, a...a....someone who "should just die"....im told every day to calm down. people say "i wish someone would just shove Ritalin down your throat." i get that twice a day or more. i want help, but cant get it. the superstar i obsess over is dead, and ppl give me a HOLE bunch of crap about him, but that happened b4 he died too,
churchi have sworen all my life, i literaly swear everyday! i say F*ck @ least twice a day. u wanna know y? its because it prevents me from doing worse. it calmes me, by just expressing myself. i have pics A LOT of ppl wouldn't aprove of(violence)....but it don't stop me from having them. yeah, i lie, a lot...but these things, god can forgive. beleive me, i was feeling very guilty about a lot of stuff i have/say/do so i went to some one i knew @ church. she said "if you ask the lord 4 forgiveness, he will forgive you." i told her everything, i can trust her wit anything and everything. she said it's ok i swear, as long its nt in the good lords name
love hurtsi await for the day i meet someone 4 me....i have never felt the TRUE feeling of"Love"......but i sure am craving it....but i don't know exactly what to be craving;how to feel...sure i've hade my deal of crushes....they all turned out to be bastards...sure i've dated 4 ppl -_-Ryan myres- after dating me, went gay 4 unknown reasons, guess girls r too much trouble....but we're still friendsGarett williams- just acquaintances nowtyler goddard- now dating my lil cuz jam, but me & him r still really close friends, but its a more brother sister kind of thing....Ryan Cassett- really close friends, but its a more brother siste